There was a power cut around 6.00, I had been reading the "the rough guide to South Korea" before everything turned black.
It's been over 2 months since my ex-girlfriend went to Australia, I must admit I feel better, feelings of grief were replaced by feelings of loneliness which were replaced a feeling of resentment. Although my general mood is better and I dwell far less on it than I had been, I don't think I could have a normal conversation with her.
Where a week ago I would have told her how I missed her and loved her, this week I would be pretty rude. I suppose this is how one deals with loss, one just tries to apply a mind set that they are comfortable with but I must say I don't miss her much anymore.
I feel somewhat stagnant at the moment, all my studies officially ended at the end of September and the results of which were revealed at the end of November. I plan to go to Korea next year but I often find myself consumed by nagging doubts, that I can't handle living away for so long, that I'll just do a midnight run, that I'll struggle to fit in, struggle to teach, maybe normal things for any prospective English teacher.
I am working many hours over the christmas holidays, I have found that chewing gum is a great stress reliever and also stimulates the brain. I don't know if there is any evidence in these claims but I would swear by the stuff for busy shifts!
I pretty much write this blog for myself but for those who are interested I work in a bar which has been the case for around two years.
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